Once again, I am having conflicts in my mind.
Here I am, just starting my Master’s at Michigan Tech. The first semester went very well, and my research is pretty much up and running. However, I am having serious thoughts about the worth of this project. I make a pretty decent stipend. However, it is barely enough to see me through the month. I always have enough, and I have no issues with going without buying anything other than groceries and gas. But, I WOULD like to be saving money so that I may buy a house within the next few years.
In addition, my research is very time consuming, and I am quite exhausted at the end of the day. It does not support who I am. On the other hand, it has potential to get me good places. Money means nothing to me. I do not understand why we worship it so, nor do I understand people’s desire to always have more. I am unfortunately tangled up in the money system, and it scares me that I am feeling all this pressure to save it up. Would it be so bad to just be paying off loans for the rest of my life? I do not live beyond my means, but I do desire a lot of land which I would garden, and it would also be used to graze animals.
The predicament: How to achieve these dreams without being drawn into money’s grasp. How to control it, rather than the other way around.